Sunday, April 11, 2010

The Twinkling Rebirth

The Twinkling Rebirth

I am trying to think of a great philosophy, an analogy but I most pause myself.
I have written many thoughts, that reveal deep emotions, sometimes buried feelings.
My life around me is evolving, what was, is the past. I must realize this.

It is different, I always felt femininity.

Femininity, an inner beauty I seen in a twinkling of an eye, the expressions I always admired.
The timeless reflections of empathy, joy, love, emotion, pain, struggle, sometimes limitless.
The signs of motherhood, intuition, creativity, life, and rebirth, the nurturing spirit.

My suffocating right is here, but it’s a rebirth, I lived one life and started another.
The very inner beauty I admired is now me, the essence, I am.

After reading this, there is no one true metaphor or thought.

For through this femininity, the very essence of my being, through many struggles. An inner beauty of joy, love, and emotion will live. For it is my rebirth, that will twinkle in my eyes.

Vivianne Summers

PS. I went to a party last night, and admired one of the ladies there. Now reflecting upon it today,
I think I was admiring what I could be, what I must strive to achieve. Knowing, I have the same beauty.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

people assuming things

This update is about nothing specific, I just felt like ranting. It’s somewhat, me rambling.

I’m tired of people assuming things about me. For example, the recent is that I am always out. This has been the case, since high school so, pretty much. It is rare for someone to ask if I want to go hang out, since the reality is I am usually home. Then the second assumption is I have a love life. I don’t even have a girlfriend and that’s been a while. It’s like I have a sticker on my forehead that says, not available.

I’m actually going stop at this note, it’s depressing and I do not want to be depressed.